It Feels really great when you realize that you're Loved, and Love.

Lately I have been having fun being single, and enjoying its perks.;) It kept my attention to itself that I haven't noticed the affection of People. I admit that I have Crushes sa campus, well, who doesn't have any? So I have been in the skies lately dahil na rin I've been bumping into them, lalo na yung tipong last year ko pa siya last nakita. Sugar rush talaga. And it's intoxicating. But these past few days, there are People who made me feel Loved in subtle ways:)

First of all, dorm mates, esp my dear socks, my room mates<3 They are like, a walking diary of stuffs that happen to me. I have been more open to them than my parents. I do not have any bestfriend because I choose not to have one.. unless may magpresenta diyan:P but i'd rather not have one, dahil na rin sa commitment to tell them everything in excruciating detail. It's that responsibility that I cannot commit myself. And I'm sort of traumatized by an experience with a former friend who was a sister to me. SO, my dear Socks:) I Love them though I do not tell them. I Love them though they may not feel it. I Love them though I hate them:) I Love them enough to worry about them at night. I Love them enough to worry about them before I eat my meal. I Love them enough to worry about them when they are sick. I Love them enough to worry about their problems. I Love them enough to memorize their class schedule more than I do to mine. I Love them enough to want to make them my biological sisters. I Love them enough to want to make them family. I Love them enough to think about them before I sleep. I Love them enough to be in my happiest dreams<3 that's how I Love them. I may not tell them these, but they are this important to me. I Love them enough to feel upset when I think of them leaving permanently. I may not be loved by them the way that i do for them, but i do not mind. I just want to Love them while they're here.:)

Then, my family, my parents, and my dear Lola:) I have been with you my lifetime, but i just realized how important I am to you. I Love you more now that I do not feel nagged when you text me when I am in Los Baños to ask how I am doing. I Love you more now that I brain consistently reminds me stuff. This involuntary thing made me realize that I see and Love you now, differently:) I Love you so much. I Love you mama. I Love you dadi. I Love you bro. I Love you nadia. AND I Love you Lola:)

Then, my dear friends, blkmates, orgmates, and most especially, dear ZeroNav. Though I am not expressive of my emotions, you are all dear to me:) I have grown to love you in the short span of time that I have known you. Madami akong natutunan sa inyo, mula sa inyo, dahil sa inyo. Nagbago din ako dahil sa inyo. And I thank you for helping me grow as an individual of responsibilities.:)

And my UPLB EngSoc family line: Kuya JC, salamat sa paga-allot ng time and money for family dinners:) i know that you are a busier person lalo na't you have a heavy job, so it makes it a big deal that you still have time for the organization:) Ninong Jay, hindi mo naman to mababasa eh, so wag ka na!:P wuaha. Joke lang ninong:P kahit minsan talaga sa tingin mo'y nawawala ang respeto ko sayo, wag mong isiping ganun yon. Tinatanggal ko lang ang boundary between us, so open tayo sa isa't isa. Napapag-usapan natin ang mga bagay bagay. Example, si Ninang! Este, SILA ninang:P andami kasi nila eh! Di ba RC? Andami na nating Ninang. Grabe na.:)) Balik sayo ninong;) Sobrang laki ng bilib ko sayo nung nagkaron ako ng inaanak. Iniisip ko nuon yung hirap at pagod mo nung nagfafinals ako. Grabe. Kaya wag mong iisiping hindi kita nirerespeto. Wag mong kalilimutan, ikaw si Boots, palaging kasama ni Dora:) RC, kinakapatid:) Alam mo ba na mula nung bata pa ako, gusto ko na magkaroon ng kuya, as in older brother? Mahabang Kwento yun, actually. But now na nagkaroon ako ng kapatid sa org, hindi man ako expressive, valuable ka to me:) Mataas ang tingin ko sayo, nirerespeto kita. Kaya nanghihinayang ako dahil hindi ako nakapunta nung reporting, delibs, at finals niyo, kasi hindi kita nakilala ng mas maaga. Nanghihinayang ako dahil hindi kita nakilala deeper. Pero syempre, kapatid pa din kita:) hindi man biologically, but in some way, ikaw si kuya rc:) Luigi, ang inaanak ko:) alam kong alam mo na to dahil ilang beses ko na ring sinabi sayo, napa-aga ang pagkakaroon ko ng inaanak sa org. Alam kong may mga pagkukulang ako sayo, but i hope that you understand:) Hindi rin kita nakilala to the degree that i expected and wanted, but i content myself with what i know. Pero sana, kwentuhan mo ako kahit paminsan minsan para syempre, updated naman ako. Ang pagiging ninang ko sana ay hindi magtapos nung finals niyo. And I am sorry lalo na nung araw na ng finals niyo, because I didn't make it on time sa vega. Nanghihinayang din ako dahil hindi ko nawitness ang pagblindfold mo. I am sorry din kasi siguro natakot ka din nuon sa vega na hindi ako dadating, na magfafinals ka mag isa. Naaalala mo pa yung text ko nuon? Hindi ka magfafinals ng wala ako. Odiba? Bongga:))

And, my friends outside the UP system. Puyatan pag magkatext, magkatext kahit may exam. Nasa Field trip man o klase, magkatext pa din! Salamat sa pagtitiyaga:) Salamat sa pag-alala kahit na hindi tayo magschool mate man lang ngayong college:)

AND! si Greg. Natouch ako nung out of nowhere bigla kang nagtext at nangamusta. It was so unexpected since it was and is, hell week. So acads talaga inaatupag ko. Napakaliit na lang ng time na inallot ko for socializing. So, si Greg nga. Natouch talaga ako kasi it's exams season na, so expected talagang acads ang focus ng mga tao. But you, though you are at a far far place, you remembered to text:) I do not know what or why you texted me, but it's impression on me when i read your msg wouldn't change. And you cleared the fog at the bridge;) gets? i know you do:P basta, I am Thankful that I got a chance to know you sa college. It was a short span of time, we both know that. But given that fact, I am Thankful that you did not forget us, your blkmates:) I am Thankful na hindi ka nakakalimot. I am Thankful na nakilala kita. I am Thankful na mas nakilala kita last sem. I am Thankful na andun ka nung sem ender ng u2 dahil kung hindi, malamang lamang napainom ako ni Emerson:) You may not know this or you may not be aware, that you are one of the few whom I consider dear:) I value you that I trust you with my spirituality -if there's such a word. I Value you that I smile kapag nagjojoke ako na mananampal ako. kapag kakain ako ng eclair. kapag kakain ako ng cream puff. kapag may magaalok ng alak. kapag may nagyayayang sumama ako sa Bible Study nila. kapag nakikita ko yung Bible ng room mate ko. kapag may nakukwento tungkol sa diliman. kapag may nagyayayang sorority. kapag may nakikita akong naglalakad na nakabulsa lahat ng gamit:P ahaha. Eto seryoso, thank you for being there. Your presence may not be constantly felt, but I thank you all the same. Thank you sa pagtitiyaga sa pag eexplain ng mga bagay bagay. Thank you for leading me when I'm lost. Thank you so much for making me realize that I am on the bridge. Thanks:)

Aaaaaaaaaaaaand last but not the least, I thank Jesus:) I thank You for dying on the cross. I thank You for sacrificing himself for our sins. I thank YOU for suffering and enduring a great deal of pain for us. I thank You for giving me a chance to meet these important and dear people to me. I thank You for all. I thank You for being there. I thank You for helping me. I thank You for doing all that He did. I thank You for all these blessing that You have given me:) I am sorry that I sinned and sin. I am sorry for my shortcomings. I am sorry that I did not take time to open a Bible. I am sorry for those moments and times that I forgot to come to You. I am sorry that I have not acted on my religious life until now. I am sorry. I thank You a lot, and I Love You. I Love You with my all.